Breaking free...

Sanura:

(RP)

Things still seem to be moving along very well. Orion is very attached to his father. I can't even give him a bathunless Gabriel is right there in the room with us. I am glad they both love each other so much... but I have been feeling strange again... I wonder... could it be?

He was so confused when it came to Orion.... what will he do if he learns there could be another child on the way?

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(side)

I honestly cannot see a fuure with Ori any longer. He never touches me. Great for conversation yes. Faithful definitely... but... He wants me to act like a nun. That is not who I am. I have never been very nun-like. No... Things had been tense between us because I have had to hold back my true self for so long. And for what?

I came down the stairs the other day to him telling the others that he could accept me only if I put on a top.... He says he is not the type to peek inside the Playboy mansion... His words... his tone... he basically made it sound like I was whore. Me? A whore? I've never done anything remotely whore-is. And yet he's the 2nd one to accuse me of it. I'm sick of it...

If I am going to be accused, I might as well become the monster he once thought me to be. So I donned one of Rose's best seductress outfits and left. Low and behold I run into Gabriel... but he thought I was Rose. I had changed my hair, my look.. everything. The black rose tattoo that I normally hide, was very much clear and visible.

Gabriel shocked me by some of the things he said about me, not realizing he was talking to me. We kissed... and I felt a familiar fire burn. It was a fire I thought was killed off, but no. It only burns brighter and stronger. ALl that passion that he said was gone, I wanted to show him that it still remained. I wasnted... I wanted him. But I wanted him to want me. Not Rose... so when we agreed to go somewhere private... I told him. Then I gave him direct answers to every question he set to me. It was the most honest I had ever been to him in all the years we had been together. I told him that I was tired of dreaming about him, I wanted him if only for one last time.

I still don't know what happeened exactly... One minute we are talking and I feel like there just isn't a chance. The next minute I am on the bed with him over top of me... It was hot.. hot hot hot... I don't think it has ever been that passionate before. It's like there was something inside of him that he kept hidden from me all this time. Has he always still carried feelings for me?

He has a choice to make... He has someone... The question comes down to who and what he wants more. I wish him the best in his decision, it sure is not the easiest decision in the world. If he chooses her, there will be nothing more between us... I can accept it and move on...

But I don't really want to let him go. He will always have my heat...

I still love you, Gabriel... I will always love you...

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Rose:

(RP) .... All I can say is I think that taking control this time worked against me... I cannot come out for a while after this... Of course she is capable of seducing him on her own... but it had been so long *frowns sighs*

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(side)

Theron pressed too far. I am all for roughness, anyone who has been wth me knows this, but... I am always a willing participant. Never have I not been willing until now. The beating I took at his hands went all the way through to Sanura even. I hadn't realize we were still so connected. I guess I have to be careful afterall.

Red and I kept finding ourselves playing these headgames with each other. I have to be careful. I have had one secret that I have guarded very carefully for almost 18 years now... I have no intention of revealing it now. I can't. Malcolm is trying to get close enough to figure it out, I know, but I won't even try.

Malcolm... I wondered if our paths would cross again. He is fun to play around with and he has made a decent friend to me. Still... I can't let anything happen between us while he has Red. I just feel like it would be bad if it happened...

Then there was Raven's kidnapping... NO one takes my daughter and expects to get away wth it. Whoever took her will go own as well as Theron. Now if only I could figure out where Sanu took off with my favorite clubbing outfit... She's been gone for an awfully long time... Red, too for that matter...

I can only think one thing... and I am not so sure that it's a good thing...

posted by Lady Aurora Phoenix @ 10:34 PM Comments: 0