hmmmm...

Odd how things in my life go... One minute I am fighting with my sister and the next... Well... I am fighting with Kedar on my parents' property after their home explodes...

It seems teh explosion was to teach me a lesson in betrayal... They consider me a traitor0 they meaning Theron's army... Of course he should know I have always been his enemy by blood rite. Anyway- thankfully everyone made it out all right. They are staying at the Sheridan while repairs are made. Rose and I decided we needed a drink or 2... or 3 to calm down...

I find it odd that in all the places in town, Rose sets us up to drink at a strip club... Odder still is that I find Gabriel there...

he is clearly drunk, and after a few so am I... we go dancing until he passes out on me, I teleport us out of the club and into an alley where he wakes up very confused on how my small frame could have possibly moved him... Magic knows no limits.... trying to explain that to him though oddly was very hard. He knows of magic, yet he acts like he can't believe I can have access to it.

Anyway- he was going to take me home till I told him I didn't have one. He eventually invited me to remain with him for a little while- until the repairs were done anyway. the ride on his motorbike was exhilarating though. I enjoyed it. However... he was furious when he found Zahara and Blake in his room... I guess I hadn't realized my sister had been injured in the explosion... Blake took her away and while Gabriel busied himself in the bathroom, I slipped out of my clothes and into the bed I used the last time I was there. The sleep was actually very restful... and I have to admit, waking up to his kiss was a wonderful feeling.

I have to be careful... I am afraid to fall in love again... but it tugs at me... it wants me to fall for him. but he loves my sister, he told me as much. How can a man who loves her, possibly love me?

I still feel like I am constantly following under her shadow and I hate it. I care deeply for him and Ra help me I could have somehow allowed myself to love him... but I fear this love.... I fear that in the end it will destroy me...

posted by Lady Aurora Phoenix @ 11:23 PM Comments: 0