My sister... she never thinks... guess that's what comes from living such a sheltered life... She had our family around her. I had darkness as my only family. She knows nothing about true survival. To literally have to fight to remain alive. This was her first true fight, I could tell. She was inexperienced. She would have eventually been overpowered... At his mercy... Though a part of me feels he would have enjoyed having her at his mercy... *sighs*
The emotions stirred in seeing him again... I am left feeling confused... I get the feeling he is too. One moment he is kind.. quiet... the next he is snapping and angry. He thanks me for bringing his burn cream, then as I am leaving he stops me... only to tell me to get lost... Then later that night he calls to meet me... My head is swimming with questions. I get to the beach as he asked and then he can't seem to leave the beach fast enough.
I go home and expect toget ready for bed. I was tired anyway. Out of the blue he calls again... I was ready to think this game of his had to stop. But he invited me over to his home. I made sure this time that he was sure before appearing over. We talked some... there is... something there I can't quite seem to understand yet. He... he challeneged me... He took my hands and burned them... I still am uncertain as to why he did that... But afterwards, he lightened up when I willingly sat down to drink hot chocolate with him. Some times he seems so light hearted... he's confusing beyond all reason... I know there is something within him concerning my sister... Spoiled rotten, she always gets what she wants, I swear...
She is my sister still... it would be unkind of me to speak ill of her... He set up an extra bed in his rom for me. Though he apologized in advance if he woke me in the middle of the night. Seems he had... a ... job... of some kind to perform that night. Rose stayed awake in my head, tempting me to join him... but I refused... just before his job showed up, he pulled me close and said he was saving me... I am still not sure how to take that... I had to be careful though while I slept...I hadn't realized I would be staying the night... I wasn't exactly prepared... So come morning it was hard not to move when he approached the bed I was resting on.
It's been so long since I had someone wake me with a gentle kiss... I thought I had actually gone to sleep and had dreamed it... It was very awkward at first... I wanted to reach out to him, but I knew that wouldn't be right. He waited for me to get ready and then we went downstairs to get something to eat. I still couldn't get over what all had happened...
Malik... I remember him... he isn't such a bad guy. just done so many bad things that it's expected of him. But when you catch him at home... he's rather quiet. Something was deeply bothering him though. Not sure he would talk to me, but he definitely seems to have even more on his mind than I have on mine. He said he hadn't slept very well. Gabriel offered him to use his room while we were gone today. He actually looked relieved...
Gabriel and I stopped to see Zahara before we left... I don't know why it bothers me... It shouldn't ... not like he loves me or we are together or anything... But Iswear, my heart cringed when I saw him kiss her. Then I just grew angry.. She has that thief.. why does she need to capture Gabriel too? Why does she need both?
Will I always have to compete with her? Will I always be at war with my own sister? Things were better for Gabriel and me at the diner. We've been seeing each other for a little while since on and off... But still.. I have no idea what to expect... and with Zaharq there almost every single day... I have no idea how to react to things. Are Gabriel and I a couple? If we are, should I be jealous? Demand she stay away form him?... Or do I just go on my merry way and live the life I was once unable to live ....
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